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...I can't... fucking stand the thought. I don't want to do this forever. I don't know if I can. I'm not that... patient, and I'm not good with empty hope and shit. But... if she flat out said it, that it'd never happen... fuck, I don't know what I'd do.

And hell. What if she didn't say it? I can't ask.