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[vore_crimes]

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...I can't... fucking stand the thought. I don't want to do this forever. I don't know if I can. I'm not that... patient, and I'm not good with empty hope and shit. But... if she flat out said it, that it'd never happen... fuck, I don't know what I'd do.

And hell. What if she didn't say it? I can't ask.

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[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

[Just.... nods.]

I wish you good luck.

[vore_crimes]

Well, one way or another, I'll find a way to follow her.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you've already made your decision, even if she's already made hers.

[vore_crimes]

I can't leave her. I just don't want to hurt her anymore either.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Go slowly. Not that it's easy, but if she knows she can move away, she'll be more likely to stay.

[vore_crimes]

...You think so?

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Yes. It's just not something that changes immediately.

[vore_crimes]

I know that much. I just... didn't think it'd change at all. Well, not that it's gonna, necessarily.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

I would be very surprised to learn that your friendship is not still important to her, no matter how much it has been strained.

[vore_crimes]

I wasn't sure of that until she got here.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

And now?

[vore_crimes]

...She cares about me, yeah. Even if the past won't go away.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

There's a lot still unsaid between you. So much so that the silence seems like it will drown out your words.

[vore_crimes]

...Yeah, but a lot of it isn't said, 'cause then we'd have to admit it's true.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

You almost remind me of each other.

[vore_crimes]

Huh?

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

You and Sera.

[vore_crimes]

What're you talking about? We're nothing alike.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

You carry your guilt and your sorrow in the same way.

[vore_crimes]

...There are only so many ways to do that anyway.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

True enough.

[vore_crimes]

So, not really important...

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

In the end, you'll have to make the most difficult decisions on your own.

[vore_crimes]

Guess that's life, huh...

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Part of it.

[vore_crimes]

There's a lot of emphasis out there on... people being together, but a lot of the important stuff happens alone.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

People being together?

[vore_crimes]

You know. Just togetherness.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

It may just be our different backgrounds, but I've never been surprised at the most profound of moments coming from individuals alone.

[vore_crimes]

I don't know about profound, but yeah.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

[Kneels down, reaching out to cup his cheek.]

[vore_crimes]

H-hey, what-?

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

There is still a difference between being alone and being lonely.

[vore_crimes]

Not sure I know it, if so.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

No.

[vore_crimes]

Well... doesn't matter.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

[Smiles.]

I think you'll do okay.

[vore_crimes]

Wha-? Well, I mean, of course I... uh.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Of course.

[And stands up again.]

[vore_crimes]

...Thanks.

[thedoctorisine.livejournal.com]

Anytime.